Real Date of Post: 2003-01-15

I found out today that a girl I didn't know too well committed suicide last night. That shouldn't affect me too much, but it sort of does because it makes me think of my sweeties Jason and Josh who killed themselves this past year.

Jason was wonderful, sweet, handsome. Now, his body in a box under the earth mouldering. Bastard! He should have striven to treat that body better.
Josh...a beautiful tweety bird. He was truly tormented, not one of those feel-bad-for-themselves like Jace turned out to be (I am still angry with him). Josh, though...he may have in a weird way done the right thing. This time, he may treat himself properly from the get-go and have a better life. Still, his mother...it makes me so sad.
So, another suicide day. Until this past year I haven't been touched by much suicide. Lots of car crashes and murders, but only one suicide prior to these. I thought we were all older than that now, a little too mature to off ourselves. Guess not.